Waiting For A Rainbow – 1st May

Bucket List – Things To Do Before I Turn 21

Glastonbury

  1. Visit Versailles ^
  2. Take a Photography Course
  3. Learn to Play the Guitar – Incomplete
  4. Publish Something (!)
  5. Host a Dinner Party – and Invite People (!)
  6. Have a Portrait Painted (or in this case, photographed)
  7. Learn a Foreign Language
  8. Be An Extra in a Film/Television Program
  9. Do My Own Laundry (!)
  10. Get a Move On With My Driving (!)
  11. Be a Zoo Keeper For A Day – Incomplete
  12. Be More Charitable
  13. Volunteer To Help
  14. Go Somewhere Unfamiliar
  15. Sing karaoke (Or in this case join a band)
  16. Go 24 Hours Without Technology
  17. Watch A Sunset
  18. Be Brave
  19. Create a Dream Home – For When I Move Out (Goodness Knows How Long It’ll Be)
  20. Plan An Awesome 21st Birthday Party (!)

As a girl, the words “Happily Ever After” meant riding off into the sunset with the one you love. Now (as an adult), I see the true meaning of “Happy Ever After”. It’s riding off into the sunset, on your own and feeling victorious. I don’t know about you, but I don’t need a prince charming to save me now.

Friday 1st May 2015

Friday 1st May

Well, this is it; the end of the road. I have now completed my one year journey of rediscovering myself and I couldn’t have been more proud. Looking back on this past year, I have learned so much about myself. I’ve discovered that I am stronger, confident and (dare I say it), full of life. When I first began this journey, I never thought about where it would lead me; now I know that I’ve gained so much and yet, there’ll be more to come.

Song #1: Birthday by Katy Perry: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IHshIYkj6hM

This is a traditional birthday pop song I like to play on my birthday. I just love it; I’ll even love it for a few days after. It’s just a cool tune. 🙂

Today, I celebrated my twenty-first birthday surrounded by my wonderful friends and family. I could never ask for more kindness and love from them than I already have. They are wonderful, loyal, warm and sincerely special. I know they had to put a lot for me and others too but they’re the real inspiration; the reason why I took up acting, writing and to help me become the person I am today.

Throughout the entire day, I had neighbours, friends and family coming to visit me. Then in the afternoon, I had I, T and S over to my house, where we had sandwiches and cake at my house before travelling to The World of Harry Potter in Leavesden. We had a really good time, looking around the exhibition and taking lots of photographs. I even had a chance to open the doors to the Great Hall; when a member of staff asked whose birthday it was, I hesitated no time and I went to reach the doors. I shared them with a teenage boy, who was also celebrating his birthday. Together, we pushed the doors and lead the crowd into the Great Hall. It was amazing; I had Goosebumps all over and oh my gosh, I had so much fun. We even had the chance to see the Hogwarts train and station, which opened to the public this Easter. We had so much fun and I will never forget the wonderful experience I’ve had with all of them.

Song #2: The Epilogue (Leaving Hogwarts) by John Williams & Alexandre Desplat:https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2Z6gY8RkEAg

This beautiful instrumental score was played while I was taking photographs around the Hogwarts station and I ended up being lost; I couldn’t find my friends anywhere, nor my Mum who came along with us (she’s a Harry Potter fan too). When I did find them, I found them standing next to the train carriages and as I walked towards them with a big smile on my face, the ending of this score (from 2:38 to 3:30) played loudly in the background. I will never forget this moment; it truly is a wonderful memory to treasure forever. And as I walked on, I could dream in my mind, me walking towards a meadow where a rainbow is waiting for me to come and share all it’s wonders with me. 🙂

And thus, I complete my journey and searching for a rainbow. From this, I will share the memories of the good times and learn lessons from the bad times – at the end of the day, there’s a new road just waiting to be discovered. Now, that I am over the pain and suffering from the past, my aim is to focus on the future and the new adventures beyond the horizon. For I’m not just a girl, I’m the girl with a rainbow heart. And I am a rainbow.

Song #3: End of the Road by Boys 2 Men: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9n9Bk1OynlA

I’ve heard this song so many times; at my school graduation and drama school graduation. This song, truly marks the end of a road and this is certainly the case for ‘Waiting For A Rainbow’. :’)

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Waiting For A Rainbow – 30th April – Part II

Note: This entry is a day late; this was due to Internet problems last night. I’m really sorry about that, but I hope you enjoy reading Part II. 🙂

‘Happy Birthday’.

‘“Happy Birthday”?’ I was confused; what on earth was she talking about?

‘You better ring your parents and tell them you’re coming home late, Georgina’.

‘What? Why?’

‘You’re going to see “Disney on Ice” for your birthday’.

I was so shocked; I couldn’t believe it. Ann said she kept the show as a secret since Christmas and I knew nothing about it. We went to see the last show and loved every second of it; there was brilliant ice-skating, dancing and tons of visual effects including fireworks and glow lights. What’s more, the show was inclusive as the audience were allowed to sing along, dance and have fun. I won’t give too much away, expect the movies that were featured were The Little Mermaid, Tangled, Beauty and the Beast and Frozen. Ann and I had a blast and we didn’t want the show to end; there’s no such thing as being too old for Disney!

Songs #4 & #5: I See the Light from ‘Tangled’: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gLSrOijxFKQ and Let It Go from Frozen: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=F-EZNWeei9Q

 

These songs were in the ‘Disney On Ice’ Show, but I think these songs have a special meaning to me; I See the Light explains positive outcomes and hopes for the future, as I am coming towards, seeing the light. Let It Go was one of the songs that helped me get through my heartbreak a year ago and it helped me become a stronger person. And I sang along to it, because I wanted to! 🙂    

 

Yesterday, I had a small gathering with my close friends at Drama school. After our afternoon lesson (which was Home Education), I brought out cake, chocolate and sweets. We all had a bite and a chat and sang S Club 7 songs. The small party lasted until the early evening and we all had a wonderful time; there weren’t many people around and two of my friends were angry that most of our peers couldn’t be bothered to celebrate or wish me a ‘happy birthday’. But I didn’t care; I learned that I didn’t need a big party to be liked or admired. All I needed was to invite those who were close to me and show everyone that I was having a good time. It’s a wonderful life lesson, one which I will never, ever forget and treasure forever.

Song #6: Reach For the Stars by S Club 7: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7SxSnjL3nZ0

This is one of the songs I played and sang along to, while talking to my friends, but this a favourite song of mine because I love it sooo much! 🙂

Today, I had a father and daughter outing with my Dad; we spend the day in London and as a birthday treat, we went to see Romeo and Juliet at the Globe Theatre! It was pretty spectacular; we saw the show in Bay K (the Middle Gallery) and had front row seats. We saw everything! The actors were amazing, the music was amazing, and the action and the romance were amazing. In the interval, I saw (from the corner of my eye) a woman, who was taking pictures of a Lego man, dressed as William Shakespeare standing on the oak rail and in front of the stage, near our seats. After she’d finished, the lady noticed my interest in her Lego figure; I kindly asked her how she made it.

‘I didn’t’, she said. ‘I bought him’.

The lady explained to me that she is currently travelling around the world and she takes pictures of the figure, wherever they go. Then, she lifted the Lego Will’s hair and revealed his baldness. ‘Look; he’s bald’, she laughed. I laughed with her. When Dad came back, I explained to him what the lady was doing and said to me. He was pretty interested too. Before she left, the lady told us that she had published a book, based on Juliet’s Nurse and it is a prequel; the story begins fourteen years prior to the play.

When we got home, I decided to research the book and the lady’s name. First, I discovered that the lady who I spoke to was American author Lois M. Leveen and the book she mentioned was Juliet’s Nurse. It was a complete surprise speaking to her; to be honest, I have never heard of Lois before, nor have I read her books but I now I have, I’m really, really keen to read Juliet’s Nurse which I’ll definitely read sometime soon.

Well, this it. I’m nearly coming to the end of my one year journey and tomorrow, I’ll reach my twenty-first birthday. I hardly can believe it; normally, I wouldn’t finish a task but I’m proud to say that this is my first. Yay! Soon, I’ll be taking a new path into my life – one that (I hope) will be full of new discoveries, new thrilling adventures, positive outcomes and tons of happy memories, full of smiles and uplifting hearts. I’m sure it will (*TOUCH WOOD*) because I can feel it in my heart. (*TOUCH WOOD, AGAIN*).

Waiting For A Rainbow – 30th April – Part I

Song #1: The Climb by Joe McElderry: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=b6DtHQmhNQ0

This song explains my fears, struggles and dreams all in one. This song helped me to get through difficult times and gives me courage to try new things, without holding back.  

This month has been extremely busy; with everything else on top, I have also been planning for my birthday tomorrow. Since the beginning of April, everyone in my family have been asking what I’m doing and to hurry up! In all honestly, I do not like being rushed. I like to relax, list and take my time, no matter how slow or fast it may be.

The Easter holidays were amazing. I got a chance to see my friends outside Drama school, while hanging out with Ann; we’ve been shopping, going to the cinema, the zoo, and paid a visit to Down House, the home of Charles Darwin and his family. Also, I spent a day with Mum by going to Blenheim Palace; we had a lovely time.

I started the summer term on the thirteenth in the afternoon; that day, my peers and I spent the time preparing and learning. However we all had the ‘first day syndrome’; I was glad that I wasn’t the only one. By the beginning of the second week, things were back to normal.

After settling down, I was busy being… well … busy. I saw more friends and, again, I hung out with Ann; first, we went to see Jane Austen’s House. The house was small because it was built in the sixteenth century but the experience was incredible; there was so much to see. We went to the nearby church and in the house itself, we wrote using feathered quill paper and made lavender bags. It was wonderful and sincerely enjoyable.

When I started to settle in at Drama school, there were positive experiences waiting in the wings to appear before me. Within two weeks, I was asked to join their writer’s group, their local children’s theatre group, children’s festival and a trip to the famous RADA Drama School; there, we had a tour of the whole building and we observed their costume department and costumes. I accepted all of them, apart from the writer’s group because it clashed with the summer show. I had to do the show; it is part of my course but I said to my teachers that I am still interested doing the writers group. I really enjoyed RADA and being part of the children’s festival. It was lovely that I was given the opportunity to participate in these amazing (and maybe once in a life time) days.

And if that wasn’t enough, I was given a wonderful position to join a band. The band, Blue Tea Rose was formed a month ago. It originally started with my Dad (who plays the bass guitar), the drummer A, the guitarist P and lead vocalist, E; they all met at a local pub in my town, where there are weekly open mic nights. I didn’t join the band until a week prior to the first performance! At the time, they were looking for a backing vocalist and Dad suggested me. I was given less than seven days to remember most of the songs (altogether, there were eighteen of them). I had a few rehearsals with Dad, my only one with the band last Wednesday and two days later, we had our first performance which was straight after my RADA trip. I had arrive home and get ready very quickly as there wasn’t much time. During the evening, we played classic rock and pop songs by artists including Whitesnake, Stevie Wonder, Wild Cherry, Tina Turner and Elton John. It was a complete success. I also got the biggest applause at the end, even while playing the maracas. I was really, really proud and I cannot wait for future gigs, especially since this was the first one I took part in.

Song #2: I’ve Got the Music In Me by Kiki Dee: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FPXbniVqG-w

This is one of the songs that is played in Blue Tea Rose (I do backing vocals for this one too); it also explains my passionate love for music and yes, I believe I have the music in me! 🙂

Song #3: This Is My Time by Raven Symoné: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h_2rxwWyyZU

This song explains my positive outcomes and dreams in life and how they are appearing right in front of me, especially after the success of the band’s first night. I’ve loved this song, ever since I was little and I still do. If it’s possible, I choose this song to be played at my graduation ceremony when I collect my certificate for my degree and/or BA Hons. 🙂

For a while, I’ve been speculating in the diary; for months and months, there was a note on the twenty-sixth of April saying that I was out during the late afternoon. I knew nothing about this and I got really confused. But when Ann said she was going to see me that day, I thought that was the reason and we were going to London Zoo for the day. Okay, I can live with that; I love seeing the animals anyway.

And that’s what we did. At London Zoo, saw lots of animals and took many pictures. We had a lovely time, apart from the experience in Gorilla Kingdom. When we were in the enclosure, the male silverback was so protective! I was taking pictures of the Gorilla who kept starring at the visitors. Then out of the blue, he turned on me and with his fists, he violently banged against the glass. He sacred the living daylights out of me and still did when I was taking more photos. So, we moved on around the enclosure and realised why he was being protective; there was a baby who was between a week and two weeks old. It was so gorgeous. Seeing one was the highlight of the day; I never saw a baby gorilla before and it was amazing to see one before my eyes.

After the zoo, we walked around Regent’s Park to Baker Street where we had a Nando’s dinner. Then, we made a de-tour to Wembley because there were disruptions on the Bakerloo line; we went for a walk around the stadium. Ann was acting strangely when she told to look at the buildings nearby. (However, I didn’t think of her behaviour at the time. She knows I like sight-see, especially when I travel to new places I’ve never seen before, like Wembley.) But when we were trying to find an exit, we got stuck since we climbed up the ramp. In the end, we walked down a flight of stairs and crossed roads; this led us to the SSE Wembley Arena when suddenly…

More on About the Author

I know I’ve written a short “About the Author” post, but I thought I might explain more about myself since I keep getting new followers daily. It’s wonderful to see new followers who share same interests as I do and I love every moment of it.

As most of you know, I’m on the Autistic Spectrum. I was diagnosed when I was two years old; I also have a gluten-free, dairy-free and wheat-free diet. The diet has been tricky for me as a child because I couldn’t eat cake at birthday parties or sweets. But, it’s now easier as an adult because the specials diets are now being fully recognised. Hooray! Back in the early days (in the UK; not sure about the rest of the world), you needed a doctor’s prescription for these diets. As well as Autism, I suffer from anxiety. I really get anxious about things; it was bad when I was little and I get emotional. However, it’s gotten better and I’m still improving on it. 

I love to do activities and hobbies; creative writing, singing, dancing, photography and acting. At the moment, I’m studying Performing Arts at a Drama school in London. I really, really enjoy the course. It has so much to offer and I am looking forward to spend more time there in the future and hope to graduate with a degree, or a BA Hons degree in the near future.

I’m not afraid trying new things; I would love to try stuff, such as learning to be independent and gardening. I set targets, hopes and dreams for myself and I never give up when I try.

I’m a keen adventurer and love to travel around the UK (I also would love to travel around the world). I get bored pretty easily and I have to find ways to distract my boredom, so adventuring and travelling, even blogging is the ticket for me.

I’m a big, ginormous history fan – I especially love the Tudors! I like learning new stuff; I’ve been historic fan, longer than a dramatic arts fan. I was nine years old when I began to like History and Drama when I was fourteen.

I was born in the UK; although I’m English, I was born in Wales. I consider Wales as a beautiful country. I adore the beaches and countryside. To me, it feels like paradise, a home where I can surround myself in nature. However when it comes to my activities, I’ll always be a London girl. I also love my music, shops and the theatre, mostly the West End. That’ll properly never leave my side, ever.  

In ten years’ time, I see myself working in the performing arts industry, travelling around the world; trying to help others and keep writing this beauty blog!

I hope you guys enjoyed it; I’ve haven’t got a lot of ideas at the moment so you may have to bear with me. Also, I’m really, really keen to interview one of my favourite YouTube celebrities but I don’t know; to be honest, I’m quite sacred and I don’t know what to do…

Anyways, I hope you guys have a lovely day/evening and I’ll post you very soon. J

What I Believe In

I believe in love,

I believe in peace,

I believe in magic,

But only good, that is.

I believe in superstition,

I believe in human rights,

I believe in equality,

Where the world can become one.

I believe in life,

I believe in dreams,

I believe in happiness,

Cause there’ll be some for all.

I believe in angels,

I believe in legends,

I believe in stories

From fairy tales and novels.

What I believe in

Makes me who I am.

For what we see,

We see a world of our own.

© 2015

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Waiting For A Rainbow – 1st April

There’ll be times that’ll go wrong; you may feel like a failure. But there’s a light, shining inside of you. That’s your faith telling you, ‘Hey, its okay. Try again cause you will get through this’. And that’s what I’m going to do – try again”.

April 2015

Wednesday 1st April

March didn’t start well; I’ve been emotionally down as the same people who wouldn’t allow me to have my personal space, started violating in order to get my attention (and maybe a reaction).When I have these situations, I do my best to ignore them, but there are some who just wouldn’t leave me alone!The things they do to me are really, really bad. I had my hips grabbed and squeezed very tightly while I was eating my food; this left me in pain for a day,I have had my neck grabbed too, but it felt like someone was attempting to strangle me, I’ve been poked in the back and on one occasion, I’ve had someone, using their elbow to press onto my skull. All of these situations have happened behind the teachers’ backs and when they are lots of people around.

I started to feel frustrated and really anxious, in case they would try and go for me again. Also, I have begun to step away from nearly all my peers and friends, hide in corners, standing near doors and wondering by myself around the school. None of the teachers have noticed my behaviour (yet), but I have told my parents and learning monitor.

When I explain my problems, I would always let them out in frustration because that’s the only way I can let it all out. However, I’ve noticed that Mum was fed up of listening to me lately.She told me that I have been rude and becoming a control freak; instead, she said I should just stop complaining and keep saying “No”, so the people can stop picking on me. I could easily see that Mum’s advice wasn’t going to help because every time I did, they’ll still pick on me.

Song #1: Land Of Confusion by Genesis: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZujuYiweht8

This song explains about my difficulties at Drama school and home, while I’ve been publishing articles on my blog.

At the same time, most of my peers were ignoring me. I then decided to give myself personal space and do creative writing; this caused a lot of attention. And in a good way. I realised that there were really interested and I even got praised for my work. This helped me to boost my confidence. Next, I tried mixing with my peers, politely asking them to join in their conversations. I normally do this, but I usually don’t get a response or just a simple “yeah”. However, they were very accepting; I even had discussions and debates about various subjects. Since then, I’ve not looked back; old friendships have rekindled and new friendships have been made.

12 Angry Men was a huge success. Sometimes, we had a small audience; one show was tiny since we performed on Mother’s Day. Mostly, we had sold out shows and on the opening night, we had a standing ovation, which is very unusual. When the show finished, we had positive feedback from the audience and in our evaluation session. I couldn’t have been more proud.

Song #2: Let In the Sun by Take That: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IhG6pZIlhZQ

This song was new at this time and I would frequently listen to it when I was travelling to Drama school. Then, I realised it was a message, telling me to open myself and keep smiling. And I’m glad I did. 🙂

Towards the end of the spring term, I was attempted to participate in a special class at Drama school. This session is called Playhouse. Playhouse allows where students and staff to share their work they’ve done outside of the school; it takes place every term. At the last minute, I submitted a play, (which is early in development). I have written a short monologue. Finding directors and actors weren’t easy but E agreed to perform while another girl in my year agreed to direct. I did manage to find an actress, who agreed to participate as my main character. However, the actress said that she had to do something. Despite that, she said she wanted to do this. Within days leading to the session, I didn’t get any response from the actress when I tried to send things to her. On the day, she didn’t turn up. This meant, I had to leave my piece and I went home.  

Song #3: True Colours by Phil Collins: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4txwNwz_MP8

I would listen to this song whenever I feel down. Although I like Cyndi Lauper’s version, I love this version more because it makes me feel better, like Phil Collins is telling a story. 

Next day, the actress apologised out of the blue and I didn’t know what to do. True, I was worried and stressed that she wasn’t responding to me but I was in a real sticky situation. I asked my Mum for advice; in the end I accepted the actress’ apology and said I was thinking of her.I haven’t seen her since. I learned an important lesson that day. Although these things happen, I just have to accept, carry on and try again.Sometimes, it’s best to forgive others even if it’s hard not to.

On that same afternoon, I went in Drama school for a lesson. I then broke up for Easter.

When I finished my spring term, I did things and I visited people. I took Mum out for a late Mother’s Day dinner with Dad, I went out to dinner with T at our, new local Frankie & Benny’s restaurant, had a few girly day outings with A, went to a lecture in my local library about Elizabeth I and Walter Raleigh; there is a novel about them and the author was presenting it. Also, I had been tidying my bedroom, catching up on my writing, and homework and I did some gardening. I normally don’t do this but one day, I asked Mum if she needed help; in the end, I ended up planting Lily of the Valley bulbs in our back garden. I was so proud of myself.

Now I’m off, I have to focus getting ready for the summer term and prepare for what lies ahead. In March, I learned that T is moving away; I don’t know when she’ll move but I know that I have to spend more time with her beforehand. Also, I have to prepare for my second year. I cannot believe I nearly finished my first year already. And doing this while I catch up on my creative writing and homework. Life’s too short to stand still, so I’m going to take risks and try to make the rest of it.

Song #4: Over the Rainbow by Eva Cassidy: https://vimeo.com/51146842

During March, we had lots of rainy days and rainbows appearing. I guess, they were reminding me that there is still hope and I shouldn’t give up. I grew up with this song and it always reminds me that I should never stop chasing my dreams. This song was the inspiration for the title, “Waiting For A Rainbow”, so I have many reasons to put this in. XD     

What Are Your Goals?

One of my followers and my friend from Thoughts from A Rambling Psyche has posted and personally invited people to share goals with each other. So, I thought I would to take this opportunity to share mine and allow my wonderful followers to do the same – big or small, I would to read them all. 🙂

I am a dreamer and a believer, so I have many back-up’s in case I don’t achieve my top ambitions.

Firstly, I want to be a writer – well, that’s been accomplished already (I think), now I’ve decided to do it full-time.

Secondly, I want to become an actress. To do that, I need to graduate Drama school, achieve my degree and BA. I’m also thinking about getting a Masters too.

If that doesn’t happen, I want to:

  • Travel the world
  • Set up a theatre company in another part of the world
  • Work on children’s TV
  • Become a journalist
  • Train and work as a fire-fighter – don’t know why…
  • Volunteer and help children and/or animals in a different corner of the world.

Those are my goals in my life. What’s yours?

🙂