Coming Out with Epilepsy

I never thought this video would see the light of day. In fact, I didn’t believe in myself to speak out about my diagnosis but now I have, I feel much better. 

When I received my diagnosis seven months ago, I was just in my early stages of adulthood. College had finished for the Summer, I was on top of the world with my YouTube channel and I had a lot of plans for the future ahead. When I got the news, my life stopped. It was like whirling down a plug hole and I was the water. I could have done things but that put a spanner in the works. ūüėí

I didn’t know what to do or what to expect. ūüėě However, life seems to have taken me into a 50/50 turn. Sure, I have to have limits for the rest of my life but there are other ways to. After uploading my Story Time video, I began to see a positive side of things. This included:

  • Getting my life back on track 
  • Finding alternatives to my health, academic and social lives 
  • Raising awareness about Epilepsy 
  • Finding new dreams 

I really want to raise awareness and share my opinion on the matter. And now with help and support from my wonderful friends, I feel that I’m stronger than I was before. ūüėä 

I don’t where the road lies ahead now but I feel like I’m on top of the world once again. 

Lastly, I want to say thank you to everyone who for your support and encouragement at this time. I’m so lucky to have amazing friends in my life and I really couldn’t have done it without you. ūüėä ‚ú® ūüĆü 

Life’s a journey but we’ll get there. Just believe and soon we’ll be there. ‚̧

Sez xxx 

2017 is Here: What Next? 

‚ÄčHappy New Year, you wonderful readers. I hope you all had a wonderful day and night yesterday (or tonight, if you are out today). 

I finally managed to upload my first video of 2017. If you want to check it out, I’ll leave the link for you here:

Now that’s done, what next? Christmas is done. Resolutions are done. And the excitement for January is done. What is the next direction? 

Before 2017 came, I knew that I was going to be in for a roller coaster ride. A lot of changes will be in the works. My own journey to the river will be harder to cross and when it’s all over, that’s it for another year. Now, it’s here – I can help but notice that strange feeling. The sensation in my stomach. The butterflies flying around. Excitement or nerves? I honestly don’t know. All I can say is – think of today, never worry about tomorrow. 
So far, I’ve been looking at options. I’ve been looking at future adventures, jobs even video content for my channel. It is crazy to think that for the first time, I’m preparing for the adult world. No more education (unless I choose to participate in another course) and no one making decisions on my behalf. It’s all up to me. If I’m going to be independent, I’m going to be brave. 

Well, that’s all for now. Do you know any suggestions for our readers? What advice would you give them?

What are you looking forward to in 2017? 

I’m sure, it’ll be an unforgettable year for all of us – but until then, keep smiling and dreaming. 



New Year: New Me?

Guilty habits are one thing but busy habits are another. It has been a while since I’ve written a post but with my channel and studies, I just didn’t have enough time. 

Looking back on 2016, I have seen that the world can be ugly – and understand how we are all afraid of things that don’t matter. We also fear of the things that do matter. Human mistakes and destruction have more authority than it has been. (In my opinion, at least.) However when there’s fear, there is hope. This a good opportunity for voices to be heard, to let not others be afraid and to give them courage. Change happens and we shouldn’t be brought down. We should be lifted up. ūüėä 
I had many doubts and sadness this year but I had happiness too. On my YouTube channel, I’m nearly at 400 subs (as I recently celebrated my channel’s first birthday). I also started Twizola Designs – a little jewellery business – and a second blog for Twizola Designs. And making new friends. It has been a roller coaster but hey, doesn’t happen to all?

So, what’s next? 2017 is going to be a huge year for me. I’ll be officially graduating University in the summer and have ambitions to travel around the world. But, I also have other goals that I want to achieve too.

  • Still be active on my channel – and take it to new heights 
  • Meet new friends 
  • Be more social 
  • Publish a novel 
  • Meet (and possibly collab) with my favourite YouTubers 
  • Star as a film extra 
  • Dare to be and feel different 

I’m not sure whether they will happen. If they do, then I’ll be the happiest person on earth. 

That’s it from me – and for 2016. Are there any New Year’s Resolutions you want to achieve in 2017? And what’s your reflection on 2016? As always, leave your comments below. ūüėä 

See you in the New Year. 

Sez xx 

New Term, New Me

This week has been really busy. After returning to school with a first week of rehearsals, I’m now back rehearsing and studying. Honestly, I don’t know how I can keep up with myself. It can be hard when you are a student, a YouTuber and Blogger under one belt but once you get used to it, it’ll all be fine.

Since I have started again for the Spring term, I have decided to renew myself by scheduling a life plan. It was recommended to me by my Support Worker, after we discussed what targets I would like to achieve within the Next Year. Sounds like a good idea, but it’s not as easy as you think it might be. All it takes (normally) is courage and inspiration. To do that, all you have to do is open your inner self.

Life isn’t easy, nor is a personality change. And is taking the easy road the only option in everyone’s lifetime? In reality, it’s not because when you think about it, changing yourself can be a new self discovery. The world has available choices for us; to decide who we want to be and what we want during our lifetime. And they don’t call it a challenge for nothing. Most famous people we know had to face many challenges to get where they are today. So, why should we let our same, old selves get in the way of our dreams?

Although I am in the middle stage, I feel that I want to carry on and explore myself a bit more. Studying, fashion; you name it. And I want to share this journey with you.

So, here are my top new changes I want to do this year.

Read a Good, Commutative Self-Help Book

Already got it in the bag. ūüėČ At the moment, I’m reading Be Your Own Fairytale by Alison Davies, who helps readers gain their confidence, through fairytales. Very good, and highly recommend it especially if you are into fairytales.

Keep a Journal

Again, got it in the bag. I always keep a few journals, plus my blog.

Try to Reach Out of Your Comfort Zone

Going through this process, at the moment. But mostly in Drama school. I want to try and be the best I can be, by going out of my comfort zone.

Be Inspired

This aim is a tricky one. However, I’m trying to be inspired by reading. I’m keen to study characters who have silmar lives to me like Harriet from the Geek Girl Series and Penny from the Girl Online Series. Then with the situations they go through and how they deal with them, I can reflect mine and see how I can resolve them as well.

Write a Life Plan

Nearly finished on this one. Before I started, I found a very useful How To page by wikihow that gave advice on how to draw one up:

And I’ve never looked back.

Try to Be Honest About Myself

A work in progress.

A new me and a new start. An excellent progress if I do say so myself.

Now, it’s over to you. Are you looking to start any new targets? If so, what would you like to achieve and why? I would love to hear your aims for this year.

That’s all for now and don’t forget to look out for my YouTube channel and blog this February for new posts. ūüėÉ


What I Want to Achieve and Look Forward Too in 2016

Happy New Year, all your lovely readers!

Hope you are enjoying your 2016 so far (even though it’s in melted snow).

For me, a New Year is all about changes and adventure. It is also a exciting moment, were you want to plan to achieve new aims and what you are looking forward to.

I have already made a video of what I want to achieve, but I haven’t done a lot of aims. So if you want to get a head start before¬†continuing, please click the link here:¬†


This post is inspired by thatsobee, who did a beautiful post of her travel bucket list. If you want to check it out, please click and follow her. She is a¬†fabulous¬†blogger and YouTuber who is passionate about her channel and writing. She’s currently in¬†hospital¬†at the moment and with well wishes, I am¬†dedicating¬†this post to her. Get well soon, lovely. ūüôā


What I Want to Achieve

  • Carry on with my YouTube Channel

Since I started my channel last September, I have been¬†obsessed with recording and making videos. However, I’ve been bad with uploading new vlogs lately because I was on a break from Drama school and have been catching with friends before I return for the Spring term. ¬†So to¬†discipline myself as well as targeting to stay on top of my classwork, I have decided to span two weeks by uploading a video one week and a post the next. This will mean that it’ll give me time to prepare for a new video on my channel, but still keep active on my blog – just a week apart from each other.

Aside from the¬†schedule, I want to be able to do¬†collaborations with other YouTubers and share some of my hidden talents (which I’m going to reveal, until I show them to you).

  • ¬† Explore, Explore, Explore


As you know, I’m a keen adventurer and I would like to see the world. I have never seen the world (apart from the UK) for a few years and I am very keen to learn cultures, history and wildlife. The places I want to travel this year are:

  1. Belfast, Ireland
  2. Bath, England
  3. Disneyworld, Florida, America
  4. New York City, America
  5. Washington D.C, America
  6. Africa
  7. Venice, Italy
  8. Vienna, Italy
  9. Naples, Italy
  10. The Great Barrier Reef, Australia




  • Studying Online

Yesterday, I have started a free course on the Future Learn website. This course is called Explore Animation, where participants can learn how to create stop motion,¬†2D, big-scale and CGI animation. I have already completed week 1 and working my way to week 2; it’s a four week course, so it’s not long before I will complete the course.

But, I am keen to learn more online courses. Not just from the creative side, but from the historical and biological ones too as I am keen to to learn more about my four favourite subjects, which are Literature, History, Biology and of course, Performing Arts.


  • Keep Up to Date with my Blog

… I’m not going to contain my shame of my less active life on my blog. It’s so¬†embarrassing


What I’m Looking Forward Too

  • Summer in the City

It was one of the main things that I wanted to do and now, I’m getting a chance to go! This will be my first Summer in the City event and honestly, I am really nervous (but¬†excited¬†at the same time). And what do I hope for following the event in August? New friends and lasting memories. ūüôā

  • OneWorld

After last year’s amazing holiday, I am very excited (as always) to return to the festival. We haven’t booked yet, but I am¬†excited¬†to see everyone again and participate in old and new lessons, such as the Comedy¬†Improvisation. If I return, it’ll be my sixth year (which I still cannot believe!). So, it will be a¬†absolute, but spiritual shocker.

  • Graduation

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And finally, the big one. It’s hard to believe that four years ago, I started Drama school. In these years, I have studied, and graduated the BTEC Dipolma course and began studying the Foundation Degree course. Now, my time as an Foundation Degree student will soon draw to the end this summer. What will I be sad? Of course. And what will I take away from my experience? All the things I’ve learned, including the Inclusive environment that I have …

However, I have been planning of what will happen next year and my first choice is to stay on and do their top up year BA Hons Degree course. I have heard good reviews about the course and it¬†excites¬†me to learn more about the Performing Arts Industry, through the eyes of my school. But if it doesn’t work out, I’ll properly find a job.

They say that everything happens for a reason, and for me, (not matter what happens) I’ll survive.


Well, that’s all for now. But don’t forget, if you want to subscribe to my channel, please check out. I would really¬†appreciate¬†it. ūüôā

Take care for now,

Sez Xxxx


YouTube: actingmylife

Twitter: actingmylife211


The Present and Future: What’s Next for 2016?

Wow! How long has it been since I wrote a post??? I guess I haven’t been paying much attention to my blog¬†lately. (Naughty, Sez!) How was your¬†Christmas?

Since Halloween, I’ve been busy with Drama school, YouTube and Christmas. Now with the New Year on the way, it feels like that time has whizzed by rather than flown by.¬†And with New Year comes New Year’s Resolutions and Best Highlights.

For me, I believe that 2015 was the stepping stone; with surprises and smiles around every corner. I was overwhelmed by your generosity, kindness and huge support. I humbly thank you all and raise my glass to you, whither it you are a creative blogger or a brave vlogger.

I have many fond memories of each year; they remind me of roller coaster rides and/or paths, when you are choosing to take different routes in your life. Some include surprises and moments, where you ask yourself, “did that just happen?” And it all started, while I was getting over a¬†spilt with someone (but, we never went far; we were never boyfriend or girlfriend. Just so you know).

actingmylife was mind-blowing, it was exciting and I don’t want to ever give my channel or blog up. It has been one of the best decisions that I have ever made; and I don’t¬†regret¬†it.

My highlights of this year (2015) are:


  • Celebrating¬†my first¬†anniversary¬†of the actingmylife blog: It’s certainly hard to believe it’s been a year since I set up my blog, but little did I know that something else was coming my way.
  • Starting my own YouTube channel: I honestly never dreamt of setting a vlogging channel. And with nearly thirty subscribers in one year, that’s a achievement. I am so proud that I choose to do this because I enjoy every moment of it.
  • Christmas: Christmas (even though it’s the¬†busiest) is one of my favourite times of the year. I love seeing family, watch television and performing. During the festive period, I perform Christmas shows with all my teachers, classmates and friends in front of an audience, including friends and family. Every year, we put on amazing shows; this year however, is my favourite because it is unique and magical. Every time I do a show and come out of the stage door, I see many huge smilies. My heart melts so much and I can’t help but smile back, because for me, Christmas is about giving something back in return. So with me and the cast performing, we’re giving back our experiences and great entertainment to all.


That’s all for the highlights, let’s move on to the resolutions and YouTube Aims for 2016:


New Year’s¬†Resolutions

  • Try and stay on top everything, i.e. homework: it’s hard to keep up with everything – it’s a top resolution I put down every year
  • Set¬†schedule dates for my YouTube channel: I really need to complete this resolution, otherwise I won’t know what days I’ll post videos
  • Do yoga once a week: I’ve done yoga many years go, as a child. But, I gave up. I want to start again, as I may need it as a de-stress booster
  • Do piano once a week: Again, I’ve practised years ago, but stopped because of Drama school. I want to start again, since I want to try and record videos of me singing. A little bit out of my comfort zone, though. Eek…
  • Plan and enjoy a long summer holiday: I graduate my Foundation Degree course in the summer and when I have a long summer, I get easily bored and want to explore (as many young people d0). So, I’m going look around and try to plan what I want to go and/or try. And who knows, I may go somewhere that I have never imagined going too.
  • Make 2016 an excellent year: just¬†because. ūüėČ



  • Do¬†YouTube¬†Collaborations: I’ve always wanted to do collaborations with many¬†YouTuber’s. I dream for my collaboration videos to be inclusive and¬†welcoming, because, I believe that it’s the way that the world should be.
  • Go to Summer in the City: I’m really hoping to go; I heard it’s tons of fun!
  • To Anywhere, with my Channel: whither it’s on a film set or a hosting a film¬†premi√®re, I dream that actingmylife¬†will travel, to undiscovered places and amazing adventures.


Well, that’s all for now. I hope everyone has amazing New Year.

Sez Xxx


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The Celebrities I Would Love To Interview

When I started my life as a Drama student, one of the first things I’ve learned is to be professional; in other words, no shouting, screaming and going crazy. However, one of the main things that I would love to do is interview celebrities in the performing arts and creative writing industries. I don’t know how to do this, as I imagine that getting through this process can be really difficult. I have looked on the Internet, but I don’t take in a lot of information because my brain doesn’t function properly (plus, I’m feeling really tired today).

Anyway, here are the people I would really love to interview, if I had any chance:

YouTube Celebrities:

  1. Oli White
  2. Will Darbyshire
  3. ThatcherJoe
  4. Matthew Santoro
  5. Zoella
  6. Floppycats (I don’t know the woman’s name, though)

Performing Arts Industry

  1. James Corden
  2. Miranda Hart
  3. Daniel Radcliffe ¬† ¬†] ¬† ¬† ¬† I’m a massive¬†Harry Potter Fan
  4. Rupert Grint         ]
  5. Emma Watson      ]
  6. Tom Felton           ]
  7. Sarah Jessica Parker
  8. Helena Bonham Carter
  9. Dame Judi Dench
  10. Kim Cattrall
  11. Renée Zellweger
  12. Cameron Diaz
  13. Leslie Mann
  14. Kerry Ellis
  15. Matt Smith
  16. David Tennant
  17. Julie Andrews

Authors and Writers

  1. J.K. Rowling
  2. Philippa Gregory
  3. Michael Morpurgo

Those are my dream interviews. I’m unsure whither they’ll happen but I would love too, even if it means communicating them, through a computer. These people really inspire me in my life and make my day when I feel blue or just simply feel bored. I do wish there’s a way, but I¬†appreciate¬†and understand the lives they have; I know there are very busy, so I know it’ll be a fifty/fifty or less of a chance.

Well, that’s all for now; I hope everyone has a good day/evening and I wish you all the best and good wishes.

God bless. ūüôā