Coming Out with Epilepsy 

https://youtu.be/tXtjbPLmbkk

I never thought this video would see the light of day. In fact, I didn’t believe in myself to speak out about my diagnosis but now I have, I feel much better. 

When I received my diagnosis seven months ago, I was just in my early stages of adulthood. College had finished for the Summer, I was on top of the world with my YouTube channel and I had a lot of plans for the future ahead. When I got the news, my life stopped. It was like whirling down a plug hole and I was the water. I could have done things but that put a spanner in the works. 😒

I didn’t know what to do or what to expect. 😞 However, life seems to have taken me into a 50/50 turn. Sure, I have to have limits for the rest of my life but there are other ways to. After uploading my Story Time video, I began to see a positive side of things. This included:

  • Getting my life back on track 
  • Finding alternatives to my health, academic and social lives 
  • Raising awareness about Epilepsy 
  • Finding new dreams 

I really want to raise awareness and share my opinion on the matter. And now with help and support from my wonderful friends, I feel that I’m stronger than I was before. 😊 

I don’t where the road lies ahead now but I feel like I’m on top of the world once again. 

Lastly, I want to say thank you to everyone who for your support and encouragement at this time. I’m so lucky to have amazing friends in my life and I really couldn’t have done it without you. 😊 ✨ 🌟 

Life’s a journey but we’ll get there. Just believe and soon we’ll be there. ❤

Sez xxx 

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2017 is Here: What Next? 

​Happy New Year, you wonderful readers. I hope you all had a wonderful day and night yesterday (or tonight, if you are out today). 

I finally managed to upload my first video of 2017. If you want to check it out, I’ll leave the link for you here: https://youtu.be/EwXxP0aMIfs

Now that’s done, what next? Christmas is done. Resolutions are done. And the excitement for January is done. What is the next direction? 

Before 2017 came, I knew that I was going to be in for a roller coaster ride. A lot of changes will be in the works. My own journey to the river will be harder to cross and when it’s all over, that’s it for another year. Now, it’s here – I can help but notice that strange feeling. The sensation in my stomach. The butterflies flying around. Excitement or nerves? I honestly don’t know. All I can say is – think of today, never worry about tomorrow. 
So far, I’ve been looking at options. I’ve been looking at future adventures, jobs even video content for my channel. It is crazy to think that for the first time, I’m preparing for the adult world. No more education (unless I choose to participate in another course) and no one making decisions on my behalf. It’s all up to me. If I’m going to be independent, I’m going to be brave. 

Well, that’s all for now. Do you know any suggestions for our readers? What advice would you give them?

What are you looking forward to in 2017? 

I’m sure, it’ll be an unforgettable year for all of us – but until then, keep smiling and dreaming. 

Sez 

xx 

The Dreams, the Reality and the Truth

It’s been a while since I’ve written a post but it’s good to do it again. It’s never easy when you are catching up with your studies, doing YouTube videos and – other things. Time is precious thing and I want to make every moment count. That’s why I wanted to write about collaborations between dreams and reality. Mine are complicated; full of secrets, locked inside me and barriers daring to not break them – but I will.

All my life, I have always dreamt of surprising everyone. So far in my short lifetime, no one would really believe I could to anything because of my disabilities. To them, that was a sign that my loved ones should completely give up on me – I was nothing. By chance, I managed to prove them wrong. I’ve been to mainstream schools, I’ve learnt how to read, and write, I came out with GCSE’s (not fantastic results, but it’s still something), and A Levels, I’m in my final year at University, I set up a blog, I set up a YouTube Channel and now, I have a few projects in the works. I won’t give them away though. Sorry.

However, there are still may that I have to tackle; I’m sure my loved ones don’t mean to crush my spirits or tell me I shouldn’t do anything because I’m not “experienced enough”. Sometimes, I do get angry and emotional, forcing myself to shut away from the world. And it’s okay because you don’t have to be a person who smiles all the time – I get that compliment a lot as my parents taught me to be happy.

These emotions do teach me something though. Every day when I get up in the morning, I would always listen to Coldplay’s Yellow – although the song’s about one-sided love, it represents my view of the world. I don’t really understand and to be honest, I never will. But what if you create your own world and make it your oyster? It’s something that I am working on.

If parents tell you to not upload something on the Internet, go for it. (As long it’s clean though – no dirty stuff!) If teachers say that you won’t get far, prove them wrong – take courage, focus and study the subjects your love till your last breath. If someone says that you’re “not good enough”, stand up and let your inner voice be your guide. Everything is worth risking for, even the lifestyle you have for many years. I’m happy to be living penniless for a novel that’s worth publishing for. I’m happy to be travelling around the world on my own when I move out. I’m happy to save others rather than myself. And I’m happy to be different – even if I make the occasional mistakes.

This is my world and this is how I’m going to live it.

 

I know this is a short post but I wanted to get this off my mind – and my chest. It’s something that I’ve always to write for a while. Pathetic, I know but like I said before, I’m letting my inner voice be my guide.

 

Anyway, must be off. I have a lot of catching up to do. But just remember that if you are lost or alone, just pause, think and mediate. I may not be able to change you but I know that I trust you to follow your own path.

Sez 

xxx

New Term, New Me

This week has been really busy. After returning to school with a first week of rehearsals, I’m now back rehearsing and studying. Honestly, I don’t know how I can keep up with myself. It can be hard when you are a student, a YouTuber and Blogger under one belt but once you get used to it, it’ll all be fine.

Since I have started again for the Spring term, I have decided to renew myself by scheduling a life plan. It was recommended to me by my Support Worker, after we discussed what targets I would like to achieve within the Next Year. Sounds like a good idea, but it’s not as easy as you think it might be. All it takes (normally) is courage and inspiration. To do that, all you have to do is open your inner self.

Life isn’t easy, nor is a personality change. And is taking the easy road the only option in everyone’s lifetime? In reality, it’s not because when you think about it, changing yourself can be a new self discovery. The world has available choices for us; to decide who we want to be and what we want during our lifetime. And they don’t call it a challenge for nothing. Most famous people we know had to face many challenges to get where they are today. So, why should we let our same, old selves get in the way of our dreams?

Although I am in the middle stage, I feel that I want to carry on and explore myself a bit more. Studying, fashion; you name it. And I want to share this journey with you.

So, here are my top new changes I want to do this year.

Read a Good, Commutative Self-Help Book

Already got it in the bag. 😉 At the moment, I’m reading Be Your Own Fairytale by Alison Davies, who helps readers gain their confidence, through fairytales. Very good, and highly recommend it especially if you are into fairytales.

Keep a Journal

Again, got it in the bag. I always keep a few journals, plus my blog.

Try to Reach Out of Your Comfort Zone

Going through this process, at the moment. But mostly in Drama school. I want to try and be the best I can be, by going out of my comfort zone.

Be Inspired

This aim is a tricky one. However, I’m trying to be inspired by reading. I’m keen to study characters who have silmar lives to me like Harriet from the Geek Girl Series and Penny from the Girl Online Series. Then with the situations they go through and how they deal with them, I can reflect mine and see how I can resolve them as well.

Write a Life Plan

Nearly finished on this one. Before I started, I found a very useful How To page by wikihow that gave advice on how to draw one up:

http://m.wikihow.com/Write-a-Life-Plan

And I’ve never looked back.

Try to Be Honest About Myself

A work in progress.

A new me and a new start. An excellent progress if I do say so myself.

Now, it’s over to you. Are you looking to start any new targets? If so, what would you like to achieve and why? I would love to hear your aims for this year.

That’s all for now and don’t forget to look out for my YouTube channel and blog this February for new posts. 😃

Sez
Xx

What I Want to Achieve and Look Forward Too in 2016

Happy New Year, all your lovely readers!

Hope you are enjoying your 2016 so far (even though it’s in melted snow).

For me, a New Year is all about changes and adventure. It is also a exciting moment, were you want to plan to achieve new aims and what you are looking forward to.

I have already made a video of what I want to achieve, but I haven’t done a lot of aims. So if you want to get a head start before continuing, please click the link here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6yCJJUG3NTY

 

This post is inspired by thatsobee, who did a beautiful post of her travel bucket list. If you want to check it out, please click and follow her. She is a fabulous blogger and YouTuber who is passionate about her channel and writing. She’s currently in hospital at the moment and with well wishes, I am dedicating this post to her. Get well soon, lovely. 🙂

 

What I Want to Achieve

  • Carry on with my YouTube Channel

Since I started my channel last September, I have been obsessed with recording and making videos. However, I’ve been bad with uploading new vlogs lately because I was on a break from Drama school and have been catching with friends before I return for the Spring term.  So to discipline myself as well as targeting to stay on top of my classwork, I have decided to span two weeks by uploading a video one week and a post the next. This will mean that it’ll give me time to prepare for a new video on my channel, but still keep active on my blog – just a week apart from each other.

Aside from the schedule, I want to be able to do collaborations with other YouTubers and share some of my hidden talents (which I’m going to reveal, until I show them to you).

  •   Explore, Explore, Explore

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As you know, I’m a keen adventurer and I would like to see the world. I have never seen the world (apart from the UK) for a few years and I am very keen to learn cultures, history and wildlife. The places I want to travel this year are:

  1. Belfast, Ireland
  2. Bath, England
  3. Disneyworld, Florida, America
  4. New York City, America
  5. Washington D.C, America
  6. Africa
  7. Venice, Italy
  8. Vienna, Italy
  9. Naples, Italy
  10. The Great Barrier Reef, Australia

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  • Studying Online

Yesterday, I have started a free course on the Future Learn website. This course is called Explore Animation, where participants can learn how to create stop motion, 2D, big-scale and CGI animation. I have already completed week 1 and working my way to week 2; it’s a four week course, so it’s not long before I will complete the course.

But, I am keen to learn more online courses. Not just from the creative side, but from the historical and biological ones too as I am keen to to learn more about my four favourite subjects, which are Literature, History, Biology and of course, Performing Arts.

 

  • Keep Up to Date with my Blog

… I’m not going to contain my shame of my less active life on my blog. It’s so embarrassing

 

What I’m Looking Forward Too

  • Summer in the City

It was one of the main things that I wanted to do and now, I’m getting a chance to go! This will be my first Summer in the City event and honestly, I am really nervous (but excited at the same time). And what do I hope for following the event in August? New friends and lasting memories. 🙂

  • OneWorld

After last year’s amazing holiday, I am very excited (as always) to return to the festival. We haven’t booked yet, but I am excited to see everyone again and participate in old and new lessons, such as the Comedy Improvisation. If I return, it’ll be my sixth year (which I still cannot believe!). So, it will be a absolute, but spiritual shocker.

  • Graduation

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And finally, the big one. It’s hard to believe that four years ago, I started Drama school. In these years, I have studied, and graduated the BTEC Dipolma course and began studying the Foundation Degree course. Now, my time as an Foundation Degree student will soon draw to the end this summer. What will I be sad? Of course. And what will I take away from my experience? All the things I’ve learned, including the Inclusive environment that I have …

However, I have been planning of what will happen next year and my first choice is to stay on and do their top up year BA Hons Degree course. I have heard good reviews about the course and it excites me to learn more about the Performing Arts Industry, through the eyes of my school. But if it doesn’t work out, I’ll properly find a job.

They say that everything happens for a reason, and for me, (not matter what happens) I’ll survive.

 

Well, that’s all for now. But don’t forget, if you want to subscribe to my channel, please check out. I would really appreciate it. 🙂

Take care for now,

Sez Xxxx

 

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Waiting For A Rainbow: Catching Dreams – 9th July 2015

   
   

 

The World Famous Carven Club


    
The Queen Mary II and Titantic Memorial in Albert Dock



A deserted platform on Albert Dock.   

  
    
 

The Old White Star Line Headquarters (now a hotel), a model of the Titanic, made for the 1958 film, “A Night to Remember” at the Muesum and the Liver Buliding. 

 
   

 The Wheel of Liverpool and Paul McCartney’s house where “She Loves You” was written.