The Dreams, the Reality and the Truth

It’s been a while since I’ve written a post but it’s good to do it again. It’s never easy when you are catching up with your studies, doing YouTube videos and – other things. Time is precious thing and I want to make every moment count. That’s why I wanted to write about collaborations between dreams and reality. Mine are complicated; full of secrets, locked inside me and barriers daring to not break them – but I will.

All my life, I have always dreamt of surprising everyone. So far in my short lifetime, no one would really believe I could to anything because of my disabilities. To them, that was a sign that my loved ones should completely give up on me – I was nothing. By chance, I managed to prove them wrong. I’ve been to mainstream schools, I’ve learnt how to read, and write, I came out with GCSE’s (not fantastic results, but it’s still something), and A Levels, I’m in my final year at University, I set up a blog, I set up a YouTube Channel and now, I have a few projects in the works. I won’t give them away though. Sorry.

However, there are still may that I have to tackle; I’m sure my loved ones don’t mean to crush my spirits or tell me I shouldn’t do anything because I’m not “experienced enough”. Sometimes, I do get angry and emotional, forcing myself to shut away from the world. And it’s okay because you don’t have to be a person who smiles all the time – I get that compliment a lot as my parents taught me to be happy.

These emotions do teach me something though. Every day when I get up in the morning, I would always listen to Coldplay’s Yellow – although the song’s about one-sided love, it represents my view of the world. I don’t really understand and to be honest, I never will. But what if you create your own world and make it your oyster? It’s something that I am working on.

If parents tell you to not upload something on the Internet, go for it. (As long it’s clean though – no dirty stuff!) If teachers say that you won’t get far, prove them wrong – take courage, focus and study the subjects your love till your last breath. If someone says that you’re “not good enough”, stand up and let your inner voice be your guide. Everything is worth risking for, even the lifestyle you have for many years. I’m happy to be living penniless for a novel that’s worth publishing for. I’m happy to be travelling around the world on my own when I move out. I’m happy to save others rather than myself. And I’m happy to be different – even if I make the occasional mistakes.

This is my world and this is how I’m going to live it.

 

I know this is a short post but I wanted to get this off my mind – and my chest. It’s something that I’ve always to write for a while. Pathetic, I know but like I said before, I’m letting my inner voice be my guide.

 

Anyway, must be off. I have a lot of catching up to do. But just remember that if you are lost or alone, just pause, think and mediate. I may not be able to change you but I know that I trust you to follow your own path.

Sez 

xxx

New Term, New Me

This week has been really busy. After returning to school with a first week of rehearsals, I’m now back rehearsing and studying. Honestly, I don’t know how I can keep up with myself. It can be hard when you are a student, a YouTuber and Blogger under one belt but once you get used to it, it’ll all be fine.

Since I have started again for the Spring term, I have decided to renew myself by scheduling a life plan. It was recommended to me by my Support Worker, after we discussed what targets I would like to achieve within the Next Year. Sounds like a good idea, but it’s not as easy as you think it might be. All it takes (normally) is courage and inspiration. To do that, all you have to do is open your inner self.

Life isn’t easy, nor is a personality change. And is taking the easy road the only option in everyone’s lifetime? In reality, it’s not because when you think about it, changing yourself can be a new self discovery. The world has available choices for us; to decide who we want to be and what we want during our lifetime. And they don’t call it a challenge for nothing. Most famous people we know had to face many challenges to get where they are today. So, why should we let our same, old selves get in the way of our dreams?

Although I am in the middle stage, I feel that I want to carry on and explore myself a bit more. Studying, fashion; you name it. And I want to share this journey with you.

So, here are my top new changes I want to do this year.

Read a Good, Commutative Self-Help Book

Already got it in the bag. 😉 At the moment, I’m reading Be Your Own Fairytale by Alison Davies, who helps readers gain their confidence, through fairytales. Very good, and highly recommend it especially if you are into fairytales.

Keep a Journal

Again, got it in the bag. I always keep a few journals, plus my blog.

Try to Reach Out of Your Comfort Zone

Going through this process, at the moment. But mostly in Drama school. I want to try and be the best I can be, by going out of my comfort zone.

Be Inspired

This aim is a tricky one. However, I’m trying to be inspired by reading. I’m keen to study characters who have silmar lives to me like Harriet from the Geek Girl Series and Penny from the Girl Online Series. Then with the situations they go through and how they deal with them, I can reflect mine and see how I can resolve them as well.

Write a Life Plan

Nearly finished on this one. Before I started, I found a very useful How To page by wikihow that gave advice on how to draw one up:

http://m.wikihow.com/Write-a-Life-Plan

And I’ve never looked back.

Try to Be Honest About Myself

A work in progress.

A new me and a new start. An excellent progress if I do say so myself.

Now, it’s over to you. Are you looking to start any new targets? If so, what would you like to achieve and why? I would love to hear your aims for this year.

That’s all for now and don’t forget to look out for my YouTube channel and blog this February for new posts. 😃

Sez
Xx

Waiting For A Rainbow: Catching Dreams – 5th September 2015

5th September 2015

Song: Don’t Be So Hard on Yourself by Jess Glynne: http://youtu.be/2mjjoaKUUa4

This recent song was played while I was having a hard time, thinking on negative thoughts. After listening and many days of consideration, it all comes down to this (which I’m about to say now).

Right, I’m going to change myself! I’m sick of moping about my life, when I should be doing something about it.

First of all, I’m going to plan my daily life – what rehearsals are there to attend, how long my lessons are, what sports classes should I take and search more on my Online Dating profile. If things don’t exactly go as they plan, then I’m going to move on and try another route.

Second, I’m going to be more positive and look forward to the future (even to the parts I don’t enjoy).

Finally, I’m never going to give up, because I am indescribable!!!! Yes,  I’m a strong big wall who is refusing to lay down and rest.

I’m going to be unstoppable, powerful and unbeatable. 😉

Have Negative Comments on Your Blog or Blog Posts? Welcome to Cowboy Land…

Yesterday, I posted an article on animal rights and received a ‘cowboy’ message on my comments section. Personally, I wasn’t angry but hurt and pretty devastated that someone would do such a thing. So, I thought to myself, what should I do? 

What I ended up doing next surprised me, but it made me feel good. This was the comment made by the ‘cowboy’ and here is my response:

bahaha what a joke. Let’s look at this with some logic and common sense.“Take SeaWorld for example. Not only do they have keep their whales and dolphins in shallow tanks the size of bathtubs (which are forty feet deep), the keepers physically and emotionally abuse them. This includes covering the animals’ sunburns with black zinc oxide, training whales to float on their backs before artificially inseminating and masturbating them; which forces them to breed earlier than usual. In one case, SeaWorld allow one of their female killer whales to inbred – with her own sons! Because of these barbarian acts, SeaWorld have failed to recognise how much they care for their animals; even the whales know that they are being treated unfairly. And do you want to know the worst part? That SeaWorld kidnaps them! Yes, SeaWorld kidnaps Orcas from the wild, before sending them to captivity.

The signs are all there – the collapsed dorsal fins (which indicates an unhealthy and unhappy orca), the reported deaths of trainers. But it’s just Orcas that are getting bad treatment.”

First of all, how are 40 foot deep tanks shallow? How are 5,000,000-7,000,000 gallon stadium complexes bathtubs? I can’t swim in my bathtub (I wish I could!) Additionally, SeaWorld is planning to expand their tanks. It’s called the Blue World Project. Look it up.

The black zinc oxide story doesn’t have any proof either way (unless you count biased articles from websites like The Dodo or Awesome Ocean)

You know how many orcas were bred through artificial insemination at all marine parks? Here’s a list: http://orcapod.wikia.com/wiki/Category:Natural_Conception_Vs._Artificial_Insemination There have been 96 captive births, only 6 of the orcas were conceived through AI. That’s 6.25% – not even a quarter. Not even 10%.

“SeaWorld allow [sic] one of their female killer whales to inbred [sic] – with her own sons!” No. The whale, Katina, mated naturally with her son Taku – she was not intentionally inbred. SeaWorld could have SEPARATED (dun dun duuun) Katina from her son to prevent inbreeding. Here’s SeaWorld’s response to it: http://ask.seaworldcares.com/?p=851

“SeaWorld kidnaps them! Yes, SeaWorld kidnaps Orcas”. No. The last orcas that SeaWorld “kidnapped” were Katina and Kasatka in 1978 – 37 years ago. It’s not something that happens anymore, luckily.

Collapsed dorsal fins do not indicate an unhealthy and unhappy orca. Even Dr. Naomi Rose, a prominent anti-captivity activists, admitted that it does not mean the animals are unhealthy: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lkVj_lZkp0c

As for it meaning that the animals are unhappy, the animals can’t move their dorsal fins around. There are no muscles or bones in dorsal fins. It’s not an indicator of their happiness.

Most scientists on both sides of the debate think collapsed dorsals are caused by gravity. Captive orcas spend more time near the surface. It’s not an indicator of welfare. The animals probably don’t even know their fins are collapsed.

Might want to do more research next time!

Thank you for your honesty and the link you sent me. I appreciate it so much; however, I would like to point five reasons why I wrote information about SeaWorld in this article:

Pointer #1: I’ve heard stories of SeaWorld through loved ones, as we all animal lovers. I even went to a SeaWorld attraction in Canada, where we saw, face-to-face, how Orcas were being cruelly treated. In small show tanks.

Pointer #2: I’ve signed a petition (which the description link is at the bottom) and once a month, I’ve been receiving emails from the campaigner that gives regular updates of the campaign. Not all the news is good though. 

Pointer #3: I’ve done a fair amount of research, just like all of my articles. In all honesty, I would never write ‘make believe’ or conspiracy theories. Never in my life because writing them is a complete waste of time.

Pointer #4: The websites I’ve researched are valid and honest. I even checked the small print myself. It’s a better way to go than using Wikipedia all the time because most of the information is better bogus. On another point, I don’t really buy SeaWorld’s decision on getting new sea tanks for the Ocras. Do they have the money for it? Are they going to keep their promises – to treat their animals fairly and stop all the negativity happening behind the scenes and while their performing? Those are important questions to keep in mind because I don’t think that’s actually going to happen. Even television has pointed SeaWorld’s negativity out in a TV documentary called ‘Blackfish’. This focuses all of this after one the keepers died, being eaten by one of the Ocras. 

Pointer #5: The humans. Now, let’s think on this one. How many humans would process greed over love? How many would choose cruelty to animals rather than caring for them? How many would choose harming animals for life by following the example of others? There are so many humans who are choosing it right now, even ones who aren’t poachers, or locking animals in small, cramped cages in zoo’s and amusement parks. 

Once again, thank you for commenting on actingmylife and we will be looking to you company very soon. 😉😊


So, if you have been affected by a ‘cowboy’ situation, you can remember these points:

1. You can delete them (if you feel that you want to; if not, please continue reading).

2. Always be polite; even if you are apologising to admit that you are wrong. No one likes a negative response, otherwise the argument continues. 

3. Make you facts and opinions very clear. This is the important one. 

4. Remember to breathe and count to ten before responding when you are losing your temper. 

5. Be the Elle Woods inside you. Just remember to leave a positive vibe at the end. 
Hopefully, I’ve explained this situation well and helped you with this. If not, comment back and you’ll get a response. 😊

Gigi Xxx