Coming Out with Epilepsy 

https://youtu.be/tXtjbPLmbkk

I never thought this video would see the light of day. In fact, I didn’t believe in myself to speak out about my diagnosis but now I have, I feel much better. 

When I received my diagnosis seven months ago, I was just in my early stages of adulthood. College had finished for the Summer, I was on top of the world with my YouTube channel and I had a lot of plans for the future ahead. When I got the news, my life stopped. It was like whirling down a plug hole and I was the water. I could have done things but that put a spanner in the works. 😒

I didn’t know what to do or what to expect. 😞 However, life seems to have taken me into a 50/50 turn. Sure, I have to have limits for the rest of my life but there are other ways to. After uploading my Story Time video, I began to see a positive side of things. This included:

  • Getting my life back on track 
  • Finding alternatives to my health, academic and social lives 
  • Raising awareness about Epilepsy 
  • Finding new dreams 

I really want to raise awareness and share my opinion on the matter. And now with help and support from my wonderful friends, I feel that I’m stronger than I was before. 😊 

I don’t where the road lies ahead now but I feel like I’m on top of the world once again. 

Lastly, I want to say thank you to everyone who for your support and encouragement at this time. I’m so lucky to have amazing friends in my life and I really couldn’t have done it without you. 😊 ✨ 🌟 

Life’s a journey but we’ll get there. Just believe and soon we’ll be there. ❤

Sez xxx 

2017 is Here: What Next? 

​Happy New Year, you wonderful readers. I hope you all had a wonderful day and night yesterday (or tonight, if you are out today). 

I finally managed to upload my first video of 2017. If you want to check it out, I’ll leave the link for you here: https://youtu.be/EwXxP0aMIfs

Now that’s done, what next? Christmas is done. Resolutions are done. And the excitement for January is done. What is the next direction? 

Before 2017 came, I knew that I was going to be in for a roller coaster ride. A lot of changes will be in the works. My own journey to the river will be harder to cross and when it’s all over, that’s it for another year. Now, it’s here – I can help but notice that strange feeling. The sensation in my stomach. The butterflies flying around. Excitement or nerves? I honestly don’t know. All I can say is – think of today, never worry about tomorrow. 
So far, I’ve been looking at options. I’ve been looking at future adventures, jobs even video content for my channel. It is crazy to think that for the first time, I’m preparing for the adult world. No more education (unless I choose to participate in another course) and no one making decisions on my behalf. It’s all up to me. If I’m going to be independent, I’m going to be brave. 

Well, that’s all for now. Do you know any suggestions for our readers? What advice would you give them?

What are you looking forward to in 2017? 

I’m sure, it’ll be an unforgettable year for all of us – but until then, keep smiling and dreaming. 

Sez 

xx 

New Year: New Me?

Guilty habits are one thing but busy habits are another. It has been a while since I’ve written a post but with my channel and studies, I just didn’t have enough time. 

Looking back on 2016, I have seen that the world can be ugly – and understand how we are all afraid of things that don’t matter. We also fear of the things that do matter. Human mistakes and destruction have more authority than it has been. (In my opinion, at least.) However when there’s fear, there is hope. This a good opportunity for voices to be heard, to let not others be afraid and to give them courage. Change happens and we shouldn’t be brought down. We should be lifted up. 😊 
I had many doubts and sadness this year but I had happiness too. On my YouTube channel, I’m nearly at 400 subs (as I recently celebrated my channel’s first birthday). I also started Twizola Designs – a little jewellery business – and a second blog for Twizola Designs. And making new friends. It has been a roller coaster but hey, doesn’t happen to all?

So, what’s next? 2017 is going to be a huge year for me. I’ll be officially graduating University in the summer and have ambitions to travel around the world. But, I also have other goals that I want to achieve too.

  • Still be active on my channel – and take it to new heights 
  • Meet new friends 
  • Be more social 
  • Publish a novel 
  • Meet (and possibly collab) with my favourite YouTubers 
  • Star as a film extra 
  • Dare to be and feel different 

I’m not sure whether they will happen. If they do, then I’ll be the happiest person on earth. 

That’s it from me – and for 2016. Are there any New Year’s Resolutions you want to achieve in 2017? And what’s your reflection on 2016? As always, leave your comments below. 😊 

See you in the New Year. 

Sez xx 

YT.I.I #4 – Chickenshedmylife 

​​Welcome to another month of YouTube International Interviews. Today, we’ll be interviewing Daggie of Chickenshedmylife.


1) How did Chickenshedmylife came to be? What inspired you to start? 

When I first became a YouTuber back in April 2016. I believe that I wanted to share my story with everyone of my favourite YouTubers (including you) in order to raise awareness of Autism because I’m Autistic myself.
2) What made you decide to set up Chickenshedmylife?

Well, when I watched all videos from YouTube, I felt that I wanted to share my experiences that they never seen before. For example; I planned to film my Summer Favourites during my stay in Ethiopia – I.E. visiting Museum ETC.
3) Did this experience had a positive or a negative impact on you? 

Firstly; I would like to go with the positive impact because I believe that being an Autistic YouTuber is an important opportunity to share my Autism story in terms of how my condition affected me during my infant years. But; in the other side of the negativity, I felt scared about the fact that the strangers would go through my YouTube details.
4) Ok, trivial question. Do you prefer individual or collaboration filming?

I prefer individual video. 
5) The biggest challenge you’ve ever faced?

As a Small YouTuber, my main challenge is to do with the fact that I kept on reading the facts instead of learning it while filming it.
6) Any favourite videos of your own? 

My favourite videos of my own are Autism in Girls and World Autism Awareness Week. – Chickenshedmylife
7) Inspiration for your channel? 

My YouTube Channel inspired me to treasure good memories when I first started Chickenshed in September 2014.
8) Who are your favourite YouTubers?

My favourite YouTubers are Actingmylife (which is you because you’re my best mate); aww, thank you so much Daggie; Beccisss, Tim and Kate’s World, The Oxley’s Daily, ComedyShortsGamer and many more.
9) What can do see yourself doing in five years time? 

In five years time, I would like to set up a family vlog as it got to the point where I can share my family life at home or elsewhere.
10) Is there any advice you would like to give for anyone who is starting a channel of their own? 

My advice for people who is setting up their YouTube channel; don’t be afraid to share their disabilities.
A massive thank you to Daggie. If you want to check out her channel, click here:

The Dreams, the Reality and the Truth

It’s been a while since I’ve written a post but it’s good to do it again. It’s never easy when you are catching up with your studies, doing YouTube videos and – other things. Time is precious thing and I want to make every moment count. That’s why I wanted to write about collaborations between dreams and reality. Mine are complicated; full of secrets, locked inside me and barriers daring to not break them – but I will.

All my life, I have always dreamt of surprising everyone. So far in my short lifetime, no one would really believe I could to anything because of my disabilities. To them, that was a sign that my loved ones should completely give up on me – I was nothing. By chance, I managed to prove them wrong. I’ve been to mainstream schools, I’ve learnt how to read, and write, I came out with GCSE’s (not fantastic results, but it’s still something), and A Levels, I’m in my final year at University, I set up a blog, I set up a YouTube Channel and now, I have a few projects in the works. I won’t give them away though. Sorry.

However, there are still may that I have to tackle; I’m sure my loved ones don’t mean to crush my spirits or tell me I shouldn’t do anything because I’m not “experienced enough”. Sometimes, I do get angry and emotional, forcing myself to shut away from the world. And it’s okay because you don’t have to be a person who smiles all the time – I get that compliment a lot as my parents taught me to be happy.

These emotions do teach me something though. Every day when I get up in the morning, I would always listen to Coldplay’s Yellow – although the song’s about one-sided love, it represents my view of the world. I don’t really understand and to be honest, I never will. But what if you create your own world and make it your oyster? It’s something that I am working on.

If parents tell you to not upload something on the Internet, go for it. (As long it’s clean though – no dirty stuff!) If teachers say that you won’t get far, prove them wrong – take courage, focus and study the subjects your love till your last breath. If someone says that you’re “not good enough”, stand up and let your inner voice be your guide. Everything is worth risking for, even the lifestyle you have for many years. I’m happy to be living penniless for a novel that’s worth publishing for. I’m happy to be travelling around the world on my own when I move out. I’m happy to save others rather than myself. And I’m happy to be different – even if I make the occasional mistakes.

This is my world and this is how I’m going to live it.

 

I know this is a short post but I wanted to get this off my mind – and my chest. It’s something that I’ve always to write for a while. Pathetic, I know but like I said before, I’m letting my inner voice be my guide.

 

Anyway, must be off. I have a lot of catching up to do. But just remember that if you are lost or alone, just pause, think and mediate. I may not be able to change you but I know that I trust you to follow your own path.

Sez 

xxx

YT.I.I #2: Paper People 

​Welcome to the second edition of YouTube International Interviews. Today, we will be interviewing The Paper People. … From their Frozen Parody to a possible Dr Who Parody, these comedians know about delighting fans.

I will now hand you over to the Paper People, who will begin with a wonderful, eye catching introduction. 

Hello, it’s Paper People here! We hope you enjoy reading our interview answers (we are very interesting). Don’t forget to watch our latest video 

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1) How did Paper People come to be? What inspired you to start?

Imogen: To be honest I can’t remember the start of Paper People. We’ve always come up with various parody ideas, Paper People happened when we stopped procrastinating and got on with it.

Francesca: Emily Curtis is impressively awesome and impressively terrifying, so when you mix those two qualities with Imogen’s insanity (not to mention her artistic temperament) and my ability to just go with it, we somehow ended up with a YouTube channel. To this day, I tend to just shrug and assume that all is well.

Emily: Both Imogen and I had tried to make YouTube channels before, but hit a bump in the road at the whole ‘making the videos’ aspect. I don’t really remember how it  happened, but I’m sure it had something to do with Francesca’s endless mind of creativity. One minute the three of us were discussing yet another of our grand assents to success, and the next I’m singing ‘Hallelujah’ in front of an IPad.

2) Whose idea was it to start Paper People?

All three of us wanted to do the YouTube thing but I think the parody videos idea came from Francesca, because she is the ultimate fan girl. She also came up with the name Paper People. Badically we were discussing song writing and one of us said, “Hey, we should make a YouTube channel.” And lo, it just sort of happened, really.

3) Did this experience had a positive or a negative impact on you?

Imogen: Positive definitely! Now we have something to show for our ideas, and of course its been great fun.

Francesca: I’d say it’s been a really positive experience, even if it’s mostly involved blackmailing friends to subscribe and filming in parks with dressing gowns and giant teddy bears. It’s fun (until it rains) and it stops us fossilising in our rooms (until we start editing – then we never see the light of day again).

Emily: Definitely positive, it’s given us a reason to keep getting together. Plus, who wouldn’t want to walk around town in a nightgown.

4) Ok, trivial question. Do you prefer individual or collaboration filming?

Imogen: I am WAY too unproductive on my own, collaboration for the win!

Francesca: I personally prefer collaborating because it curbs my natural instinct to procrastinate.

Emily: I suppose it’s always collaboration for us. Although we are going to use a bigger cast for our Dr Who parody soon, so we’ll see how it goes.

5) The biggest challenge you’ve ever faced?

Imogen: I’ve got to agree with Francesca on this one, I can never keep a straight face when we’re filming!

Francesca: Biggest challenge we’ve ever faced? Probably trying to shoot without laughing. Harder than it looks.

Emily: From a YouTube point of view, editing. Computers actually hate me and I think my Mac and the wifi box are plotting a rebellion.

6) Any favourite videos of your own?

Imogen: ‘On my own’ was just hilarious to film, we had to haul a massive teddy bear around Southampton! However compared to what we’ve got planned that’s positively tame.

Francesca: Ok, this is a little narcissistic, but “Let it Load” was my favourite to do because I directed it (and wrote the lyrics), which is always really fun, and I’m really proud of how well it turned out.

Emily: The Frozen parody ‘Let it Load’ staring ME! Some people say I’m self entered, but enough about them, back to me.

7) Inspiration for your channel?

Imogen: Definitely the fans of the shows we’re parodying, everyone is so creative with whatever they create, from fan art to fan fics, animations and everything in between. It really inspires me to keep improving the quality of our work.

Francesca: Inspiration for our channel…I’m going to have to go with The Hillywood Show for that one. I am a devotee of their videos and I’ve watched them all at least five times each. I learnt so much about filmmaking just by watching their “Behind the Scenes” vids, and they’re so lovely and talented that it’s honestly no surprise that I wanted to make something as good as theirs.

Emily: Our undying love for Dr Who, Supernatural, The Avengers, Welcome to Night Vale… We need to get out more.

8) Who are your favourite YouTubers?

We love the humour of communitychannel, and the creativity of youtubers such as thisbedottie and Izzy Inkpen just to name a few. As well as The Hillywood Show.

9) What can do see yourself doing in five years time?

Imogen: Missing important uni deadlines because I was binge watching re-runs of Dr Who (not much change there) …Ahem, uh I mean functioning as a responsible adult. Whatever it is I’ll be doing art though.

Francesca: I’m planning to study Film Production in university so I can one day become a film director (like my uncle!). Also, I write novels in my spare time, so hopefully I’ll end up a successful author one day 🙂

Emily: Watching to much TV and eating cake, I like to set goals I can achieve.

10) Is there any advice you would like to give for anyone who is starting a channel of their own?

Imogen: In the words of Shia Labeouf “Just do it!” Your camera quality may be bad and your editing worse but perfection is something that comes with practice so just do what you enjoy and most importantly – have fun!
Francesca: Advice for the budding YouTuber: 

– Don’t be upset if you start off slowly; people have to notice you first! Just be patient and the views will start flooding in.

– Be the best you can. Go the extra mile on editing, filming and lighting – they really do make such a difference.

– Work hard…but play hard too. YouTube isn’t the be all and end all of life itself. Try to have a backup hobby (like, I dunno, knitting or something).

– Have fun!

Emily: Find stupid friends (preferably two of them), borrow a nice camera, and pretend you’re funny and that you can sing. Who knows some sucker might actually believe you some day 😉
Well, that’s all for this month. A huge thank you to The Paper People for their fabulous interview – very entertaining to read. If you want to check out their channel, click here on the link above the page, which will take straight to the Frozen Parody. 😉😀

YT.I.I #1: The Clueless 2

Welcome to the first edition of YT.I.I, where we be interviewing international YouTubers from around the globe.

Today, we’ll be interviewing Marie of Matt and Marie from The Clueless 2. Small YouTubers from the UK, she (and Matt) discuss what it’s like to be YouTubers’ and how difficult it is to manage a channel. 


1) How did The Clueless 2 came to be? What inspired you to start? 

​Both me and matty watch youtube videos, its like a religion. Anything goes we literally enjoy most content on YouTube. When we finally decided that YouTube was something we wanted to do; coming up with a name was the most hardest part. We were thinking just our names and the list went on and on. It want until we sat there and was both like ‘we are just so clueless!’ and that was it the clueless 2 came around.


2) Whose idea was it to start The Clueless 2?

It was both of ours. Matty had already had a youtube YouTube channel but life had taken over and he couldn’t keep it up. I told him back in June that YouTube was something I was considering because he really enjoyed it and I thought I would too. We then decided to join together and be 1 channel.

3) Did this experience had a positive or a negative impact on you? 

A big positive impact, we have met a lot of lovely people so far and have really enjoyed making a YouTube family. We are soon going to be hitting 1 month on YouTube and we love it. There has not been any negative vibes so far and we are glad.

4) Ok, trivial question. Do you prefer individual or collaboration filming?

Well considering we have only done 1 collab; I would say we do really enjoy it. The collab was with my brother and it was a challenge between him and Matthew. I think it makes a change and it is fun to bring others on to YouTube.


5) The biggest challenge you’ve ever faced?

The biggest challenge so far I don’t think has happened yet. Luckily everything is going very smooth; we have learnt how to edit videos and make thumbnails. The main challenge I guess right now is our blog but even so, I love making it our own.


6) Any favourite videos of your own? 

My fav was our introduction – I don’t know why but we both had fun filming it and it was so scary to post online for the first time.


7) Inspiration for your channel?
               

There are so many YouTubers who helped inspire us mainly the lovely Zoella and Alfie Dyes; we really enjoy watching them. We would love if they would do a couples challenge with us (I know its very high hoping). Not only that but we like the idea that we can make our own content and have a good time.


8) Who are your favourite YouTubers?

I guessed I just answered this but there is such a mix like Alfie, Marcus Butler, JJ, Comedy Shorts Gaming, Sprinkle of Glitter and a bunch of small YouTubers.


9) What can do see yourself doing in five years time?
 

In 5 years, I would like to have YouTube as a full career. We have decided that we would also make some more channels and move on to day to day vlogging. We would also want our own office by this point.


10) Is there any advice you would like to give for anyone who is starting a channel of their own?

I think this is one of the most important questions; it was hard making a youtube channel, some people think you only make videos and smash them online. this isn’t the case, you must make sure that you don’t break any laws and also making sure you get your self promoting on. We were so dare I say Clueless that it has been a massive learning curve. We wouldn’t change it. If you plan to do something than do it and if you are debating YouTube, do it. There is no harm to try and get out there and have the best time while online. We wouldn’t change a thing and if anyone ever wanted our help or advise we would love to help them out.

A massive thank you to Marie and Matt. If you want to check out their channel, click here: The Clueless 2.