YouTube Struggles I Face

It’s hard to believe this. But five months ago, I started my YouTube channel. In total, I have around ten videos, over seventy subscribers and about 180 views (based on one of my videos). I have been on an amazing journey so far; but I’m feeling that I’m not giving my best.

Aside from work from University, I have other struggles of my own that involve Social Media (a.k.a. YouTube):

  • Language Problem – As well as being on the Autistic spectrum, I have serve Language Problems which have affected my whole life. This means that I misunderstand social situations like political matters, or what people think about me before getting on the wrong end of the stick. E.g., when I say, “I’m beautiful in every single way” instead of “I have to be honest with myself. I’m not prefect on the outside, but I feel that I’m beautiful within”.

Viewers want short, snappy dialogue – which I can understand – but, they don’t want someone who is too big-headed. It’s hard to keep everyone happy; sometimes, it can be hard to make yourself happy with the work you do. Which brings me to my next point.

  • Internet Bullying – They say that everyone has a fear; it’s no big surprise that the twelfth biggest fear is failure (according to The Awesome Daily). And failure can be the cause of negative comments. I’ve had to deal with them and it has not been easy. But receiving a comment from someone behind the screen can make it a lot worse.

When it comes down to this, most YouTubers’ would ignore and carry on. However, the words people say can hurt, whither on or off-screen. So, I guess it’s a Win vs. No Win situation that’ ll repeat itself from time to time.

  • Not Being Self-Critical About Myself – This is the biggest point that I do not take really seriously. Like with the Language problem, I jump into conclusions, without looking at them properly.

And with this, my family have said not to upload videos as I’m rushing into things. But if I don’t see them on my channel, uploaded and ready to be seen, how would I improve my videos? It can take time, but are there other ways to do this?

  • Editing – It’s a problem for my family. Every time I prepare my videos, I have comments about the edits: that they make them sick.

They don’t like how to shorten my videos to make them less than ten minutes long (i.e., when the clips jump continuously). Instead, my family have decided that I should record and run the film throughout, with no cuts (which I know can take a long time). I’ve had experiences, where they think I’ve made no mistakes. On the other side, I don’t think I’m prefect. But to be fair, what makes a prefect YouTuber?

  • Multi-Tasking – I do all the time; work, while listening to music/watch other YouTube videos. I really need to stop but it can be addictive.


It’s hard for me to open up about life behind the screen, even in front of my family (especially since we’re very close). I do want to continue my channel: it’s my favourite pastime. However, I need patience, preparation and time. Sure, I’ll be unsure whither, or not to upload a latest video after editing it, panic about the judgements everyone makes or not being happy about myself. But, I will do my best.

Well, that’s all I have to say for this post. What do you think? Do you struggle with YouTube videos, blog posts, or anything else? And how to you/plan to approach them?

All best,

Sez ūüôā

Author: Sez

My name is Sez. I am on the Autistic Spectrum; I was diagnosed when I was two years old. Being Autistic can be tricky; I easily jump into conclusions and miss important skills that are part of my social life. However, my "condition" hasn't stopped me from doing the things I love. I am currently studying Performing Arts at a Drama school in London. I'm a hard worker and a dreamer. Also, I love creative writing and writing lyrics. I'm a keen adventurer and would love to travel the world. I want to take this opportunity to thank you for reading my blog. I hope you enjoy actingmylife. :)

8 thoughts on “YouTube Struggles I Face”

  1. I agree with your sayings about your past experiences when you first became a YouTuber. This will teach people a lesson and they need to learn how to comment your videos positivity, rather than the negativity. ūüėČ

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      1. Aww, that’s good. I’ll probably add another blogpost from my WordPress regarding YouTube and what voluntary work that I’m going to do when I travel to Ethiopia this Summer because what happens is that there is an Autism Centre where Children can receive therapies, such as Occupational, Speech and much more. ūüėė

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  2. I can 100% relate to this post! I have been through ever single point mentioned above and to be honest I stopped vlogging “a.k.a Youtube” for some reasons. But I think I should go back to it as its something I enjoyed doing!
    Great Post xx
    Hope you could check my blog and maybe comment too, just to make my day! “winks with a smile”

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