Waiting For A Rainbow: Catching Dreams – 21st June 2015

Bucket List

  • Participate In An Open Mic Night
  • Practise and Travel Independently
  • Go On More Holidays (Local and Aboard)
  • Do Driving Theory and Test
  • Look For Voluntary Weekend Jobs

 

  • Sign Up For Activities/Volunteer Jobs

 

  • Talk More Openly About Anxiety Issues
  • Make Sure to Return Library Books on Time
  • Go To Bed At An Earlier Time, Rather than Later
  • Complete Kat Ashley Novel
  • Help Around the House More
  • Do More Drawing and Photography and Zentangles
  • Plan for the Future; Look into Independent Living, Work Places, etc.
  • Work on Anxiety, Drama and Vocal Exercises
  • Cut Down on Fizzy Drinks
  • Study Extra Hard at Drama School
  • Do More Yoga or Mediation
  • Open Up My Imagination A Bit More
  • Don’t Be Afraid to Say “No”
  • Do More Creative Writing
  • Be A Zoo Keeper For A Day
  • Learn to Play Guitar
  • Be Friendly to Everyone
  • Don’t Be Afraid to Share Ideas with Teachers
  • Do Extra Work with UniversalExtra
  • Practise Sign Language Weekly
  • Cook More
  • Be thankful with What I Have or Got
  • Enjoy Life, As It Is
  • Keep On Believing and Never Stop Dreaming

“Never forget the feelings in your heart when you cross paths”.

June 2015

21st June 2015

In the words of Renee Zellweger, ‘It’s the truth universally acknowledged… that the moment one area of your life starts going OK… another part of it falls spectacularly to pieces’. And these words can’t express the news I’ve received in these last two weeks.

Just as I was settling into my new job, I discovered that Kat is moving away – in three weeks’ time. Since the New Year, I knew she was moving to the Isle of Wight but I didn’t know when, until she’d texted me one night. It was a devastation for me. Since we’ve been little girls, to the huge gap apart, to our reunion a year ago, Kat and I have always been close. With all the other girl friends I have ever had, she has been the most kind, fun and loyal. She wouldn’t hurt me, she shows me how to have fun and I always have good times with her.

When friends and classmates I knew moved away, I felt nothing. Sounds weird? Yes, but that was me. With Kat, it’s different. I have and feel no tears; just great, painful sadness. Although Kat said that she’ll visit me every six months and I can come to visit her. But will our friendship remain the same? That’s the question that has been haunting my mind lately. I haven’t told anyone else (apart from my parents) about this and I don’t know if I want too. Lately, I’ve been trying to cope. Even though life is normal, with the routines and people, I feel everything has changed (or I must be doing a good job of hiding my sadness) and no one seems to notice. Mum wants me to join an autistic social girls group, as usual and there’s more stress over at Drama school. However, Dad has told me that I should give her a present; something I can make myself. So, I will try to do this before Kat moves away, while I’m studying.

Song: I Will Remember You by Sarah McLachlan – https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FacDkraAvlI

This song explains my friendship with Kat; even though I’ll see her again, ‘I Will Remember You’ reflects the memories of Kat and the love I have for her as a true best friend.

Meanwhile, I’ve been extremely busy with work and family. Drama school’s been busy (with my schedule), BHF is exciting; honestly, I look forward to it more than Drama school, I’ve back to visit Blenheim Palace with Ann, and I celebrated Father’s Day at my local zoo with my father, my wonderful brother, sister-in-law and nephews. We’ve had wonderful time and like all weekends, they’ve been memorable. Just like old times with friends…

Coffee

The smell of caffeine,

Roaming up in the air;

Your mind feels fresh and clean,

When the world shatters in a tear.
The taste, so luring,

Smooth and exciting.

An adventure so daring

And the texture is so inviting.
Life without coffee

Is like bread with no butter;

Cause if we’re not happy,

Then, there’ll be no sweet coffee. 🙂
© 2015

  

Waiting For A Rainbow: Catching Dreams – 12th June 2015

Bucket List

  • Participate In An Open Mic Night
  • Practise and Travel Independently
  • Go On More Holidays (Local and Aboard)
  • Do Driving Theory and Test
  • Look For Voluntary Weekend Jobs
  • Sign Up For Activities/Volunteer Jobs
  • Talk More Openly About Anxiety Issues
  • Make Sure to Return Library Books on Time
  • Go To Bed At An Earlier Time, Rather than Later
  • Complete Kat Ashley Novel
  • Help Around the House More
  • Do More Drawing and Photography and Zentangles
  • Plan for the Future; Look into Independent Living, Work Places, etc.
  • Work on Anxiety, Drama and Vocal Exercises
  • Cut Down on Fizzy Drinks
  • Study Extra Hard at Drama School
  • Do More Yoga or Mediation
  • Open Up My Imagination A Bit More
  • Don’t Be Afraid to Say “No”
  • Do More Creative Writing
  • Be A Zoo Keeper For A Day
  • Learn to Play Guitar
  • Be Friendly to Everyone
  • Don’t Be Afraid to Share Ideas with Teachers
  • Do Extra Work with UniversalExtra
  • Practise Sign Language Weekly
  • Cook More
  • Be thankful with What I Have or Got
  • Enjoy Life, As It Is
  • Keep On Believing and Never Stop Dreaming

12th June 2015

Wow-wee! I’ve never felt happy. I mean, truly happy because today, I started working at the British Heart Foundation (one of the finest charity shops in the UK) as a volunteer. I never thought of finding a voluntary job so quickly but it happened. And it all started on a shopping trip with Kat.

The two of us met up last weekend and yesterday, having a spot of lunch and drinks too. But, some reason, our shopping sprees got out of control (especially mine). It was while we were shopping that yesterday, I thought of British Heart Foundation. Kat is a volunteer of BHF too; for days, weeks and months, she’d talk about BHF and all of the volunteers. Suddenly, an idea came into mind; why not come to BHF, try and apply as a volunteer. So, Kat and I went into the shop; as we were going in, there was a notice, saying that the shop was looking for volunteers. Then, I met the Assistant Manager and by a stroke of luck, she said I could start the next day! I was so shocked, excited and completely buzzed. And I still can’t believe it.

I officially began my voluntary job at precisely two o’ clock in the afternoon on Friday 12th June 2015 (which of course is today). Originally, I was going to spend an hour there. In the end, I stayed for nearly three hours and honestly, I didn’t want to leave. All afternoon, I sorted out the clothes in the clothes department and put tags on them, so they’ll be ready to sell. But I wasn’t alone in the room; I had wonderful employees who came to my aid when I was trouble, to sing along when our favourite songs were on the radio and to have fun conversations that’ll make you smile.

Working with the team at the local BHF shop was amazing and the best part is, I start again next week. I can’t wait till then. 🙂

Also, I’ve officially signed up to UniversalExtra. Hopefully, I shall find and start work as an extra pretty soon.

As another week draws to a close, I feel that things are starting to go my way. I’m starting to feel confident in my social life. And somehow, deep down inside, I feel I’m blooming into a grown-up – even though I’m a little girl by heart. 🙂

Song: Click Flash by Ciara – https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TyRcm5OIu7o

I know this song is about love (with a little photography), I felt this song fits my excitement of my first day at BHF, especially since I was working with clothes – all prefect and fabulous. At that moment, I felt like I was Carrie from “Sex and the City”. And I was feeling proud of myself. 🙂